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lately, I've become kinda depressed and a bit sad, I'm not really complaining, just venting a bit. Some friends of mine are not whom they seemed to be like years ago and I guess people change and sometimes you have to leave certain people to better yourself. I'm not going to stand to be used or treated like crap anymore. I've grown out of the high-school drama class shit and head games people try to put me through. I seemed to have lost friends and lost contact with many people these last couple years whom I thought were close friends or cared but I guess in the end, didn't. I sometimes wish I could rewind time but then again, I would just be in the same mess as I was before, so thank god that's over with.

my job is not going as well as I had hoped. I am laid off again these last two weeks, hoping for a call back soon. I would like to save some money again. Also I am hoping to maybe meet someone new and find love again. I'm getting a bit older now and I really would like to find someone and settle down and maybe start a family but I don't know... someday maybe. I should try going to college for photography or graphic design maybe and see how that goes... I'm not sure.
hey everyone! :wave: :heart:

I just wanted to announce that I finished my first ever 2 piece artwork. I've seen other artist's create works like these where it is 2 works but 2 different backgrounds and models to convey the same scenery but also two different poses and emotions within in the work. So, I decided and planned it out that I would try this as well and I think I did a pretty good job, I'm pleased how it turned out. I know I'm not the greatest artist ever but I try my best and really that all i can do! hehe These particular works were quite complicated. I changed the bottom of the dress on the one girl and I also painted her hair so it looks like she's looking away. In the original picture she is looking at the camera. In the second picture the hair was also very difficult to work with a bit and I was having a lot of problems trying to change her dress from white to red! Finally this is how it turned out, not bad considering the amount of flaws that were occuring in the proccess. hehe Well I hope you all like. I posted each of the works seperately but the final artwork is here:

silver and cold by WCS-Wildcat

silver and cold

Thank you all for your comments, favs and kind support. It is always very much appriciated! I will be continuing to work on a new artwork again very soon. :blackrose:

Scott
hey everyone! :wave:

I'm just updating a little to say I have been busy creating some new works. I am currently searching new stocks and will be working on a new artwork very soon! I am also open to collabs too. I will soon be collaborating with :devlittlebabybutterfly, my good friend Ashlee again: I have been very active last year or so and I am trying hard to keep into my art and keep active. I hope you like my new works enjoy! :blackrose:

lost without you by WCS-Wildcatkey to my soul by WCS-Wildcat
I really miss creating my art. Not sure where my inspiration went but i just recently started having some creative ideas come to mind.. I finally finished a new work which I'm very pleased about and I should be starting my next one very soon!

So my work sent me a letter in the mail recently and said unfortunately they have no room to call me back so my position is being terminated. I guess I will have to find a new job or try to apply at a college or something now. I would really like to go to college and do something constructive with my life, be creating artworks or webpages, doing designs and stuff I love rather than working in these pathetic, minimum wage factory jobs. I would love to save some money and go travelling again! maybe somewhere tropic? :aww:.. I would also seriously love to visit England or Germany.

I've been busy and pre-occupied with other stuff these last couple years. I would be really happy if I could get back steadily into my art again but I think I need to get faster internet and soon my own comp maybe too. I hope all of you are doing well. I missed everyone very much at dA. I am really trying to keep going with my art but I'm really inactive anymore and im very sorry. I am doing the best I can do and with each artwork I find I am learning more and more. I would like to just thank you all for the guidance, help and support for all these years on dA, viewing my art and reading my journals and giving me all the advice I need to become a better person and artist. I've had the honor to speak with some amazing artists and people who have truely affected me and who have been completely amazing and even if I don't know them face to face I would call them a true friend :heart:

Scott
Hey everyone :wave:

I was staying at a friend's place and she has free wifi internet, interesting to say that it doesn't work so well for her computer but it works fine on my xbox for live. I am at home now for a day or so but probably will return to her place within the next couple days. We are purchasing episodes of Jersey Shore on the xbox. She likes the show, there is a lot of bs and drama crap on the show, but it is actually getting interesting. Anyways I have Xbox live! It will expire soon but i think I will add more time to the membership because i love it. I am really addicted to Transformers: War for Cybertron. There is quite a few different modes and games to play and also customizeable characters. I am a little addicted to the Escalation mode, where you play co-operative with teammates against waves of computer AI robots, which increasingly becomes more, faster and bigger robots to destroy. You destroy robots and gain points to open doors and purchase guns, health and ammo. Once you get get killed you have a short time before a teammate and run over and revive you quickly before you're completely dead for the rest of the wave. A lot of the time now I refuse to go revive people because they get killed in the most stupid spots and get surrounded by enemies and going to save them is pretty much suicide anyways. In this way I've become a more experienced player, not having to rely on reviving teammates or having them help revive me.

Anyways, I was in the middle of moving the xbox the otherday and my disk was in the console and I guess it must have been still running, the console was tilted a little and when I popped the disk out there was a complete ring of scratch on it. I'm guessing since it was still on, that made the disk spin and scratch up against whatever it was tilted on inside the machine. I never had this problem before until now! I tried everyway to clean the disk but it won't read and i keep getting disk error messages. I think I will simply buy the game again. A lot of the new popular games are like $60 but lucky this one was only $30.. which is reasonable I guess. So anyways no transformers til i get a new disk.

My name on xbox live is CB KingBee if anyone wants to add me as a friend and I would love to play with anyone on here who has Transformers WFC. =D

I am pretty much a robot fanatic! I'm completely obsessed over robots lol. I am very big fan of the Mech series. I own MECH COMMANDER, MECH COMMANDER GOLD, MECH COMMANDER 2, MECHWARRIOR 2, MECH WARRIOR 3, MECHW3: PIRATES MOON, MECHWARRIOR VENGEANCE, MECH WARRIOR 4 MERCENARIES. I also own MECH ASSAULT and MECH ASSAULT2. I don't have an xbox harddrive to play the original xbox games on so I can't play mechassault online. I tried this disk my friend made for xbox updates to play original xbox games but it doesn't work! I have to buy an xbox harddrive from the store i think which will cost $175 and I can't afford extra little stuff right now, so that will have to wait. Also I am just visiting my friend for the month or so, I can't get xbox live at home so I don't know how long I will be on live for. :( I also found on a website which you can download old super nintendo games, i found 2 different MechWarrior games but they are not very exciting to play lol. I own all the transformer xbox games based on the movies plus War for cybertron which is not based on the movies and it is by far sooo much better than the others.

I kinda feel like a kid again playing transformers. I am pretty new to this because Transformers was before my time. I was born 1986...all the 80's cartoon shows started to die. I was really into batman, especially the 1989 movie with batman and the joker. All these years go by and now they are bringing back a lot of the old cartoons and movies and remaking them. I like the transformer game I play because it seems more like the cartoons and the robots i think look much better than they do in the movies they made. I've been playing Mech Commander Gold online for 10 years now and its pretty much dead, only 4 active players a night.. Transformers really reminds me of my MCG days and it's like something new and fun again, less arguing and drama too. I'm happy when I play, not stressed out and angry. There was a couple games in Transformers where people on the mics would be rude and insulting but not near as bad as what I've dealt with in MCG.

There is somethings in this xbox live play I don't like. It will automatically set you up to a game wheither it is just starting or almost finished. Often times I get set up in games where there is only 1 or 2 other people starting the game and I like a 2v2 or 3v3 at best ya know. You sometimes get set up in games with people you don't like, people whining on their microphones or kids who leave their mics on and you can hear people or their siblings playing piano or something distracting in the background.. I really hate that. Some set ups even the host can pick the map or a good map to play you get set up with a bad map and not many people. With MCG on the computer I was always able to decide what game to play in if it had a few people or lots. The host ALWAYS gets to choose a map and usually other players decide which they want to play. You don't have to listen to in game voice like on xbox, however you can't mute people in-game chat and they can be very rude and insulting, but that's something I've learned to deal with and it doesn't bother me so much. So I definately think there's room for improvement for online play but it is fun.

I found on youtube which is also available through xbox live there there is a new transformer game which is the sequal to this game i play its called FALL OF CYBERTRON and it's release is fall of this year 2012, it looks amazinggggg. The Darkness2 comes out febuary next month which I'm kinda excited for too. I would also be really excited for a new HALO game, i played and beat HALO1 HALO2, and HALO3.. also beat HALO WARS which wasnt a very good game. I haven't played REACH or ODST but they look interesting, I was reading a magazine a bit in a store they are working on HALO4 i think, they showed some really cool graphic pics of the Master Chief. :w00t!:

I'm thinking maybe I should start a gamer's blog? :giggle:

Well that's all I have to say about my little bit of gaming. As for my art I'm pretty inactive right now. I haven't been home much and I've been busy. My friend's internet bairly works, its off and on and when it does work, it's only for like 15mins or so. Her version of Photoshop is not working right now either so I haven't been doing any digital works lately. I was browsing some stocks tonight and didn't find anything. However I did a little fun twilight sketch thing for my friend and did a little cartoony style sketch of Bella, Edward and Jacob for Ashlee :aww: I think I did OK on them.. the Jacob sketch isn't so good though, I'd like to do a different one. Anyways she has them at her house and I forgot to bring them home to scan them cos I wanted to upload them here on DevArt for fun. I have quite a few twilight fans watching me. hehe. I like the twilight movies so I guess I am a fan, I never read the books. I'm just not a huge fan of it. I was more into the Underworld movie vampires and wearwolves because to me they seemed more realistic. Also those movies had more blood and violence which was more entertaining to me than the cheesy romantic drama in twilight. Sorry to say but that's just my little opinion. I still like twilight.

This was a super long journal, I felt like saying a lot of stuff. There's not much happening in my life right now. I am hoping to get called back to work soon because I could use the money. I hope everyone is doing well! Since I am home now I will try to create some art but I can't promise anything, I am inactive these days now and not so inspired to create. I think to be honest as a photomanipulation artist, all kinds of photo manips have already been done, everything is starting to look the same. I always see the same kinda of things, a girl with a crow or cat or butterflies.. standing by a cross or ocean or in a field or sitting in snow and playing violin or whatever...they are beautiful but I feel it's becomming all the same. I think I'd like to try something new again, maybe paint or do digital painting or maybe upload a couple drawings for a change. So, I don't know when I will be uploading another artwork.. I'm scanning through stocks, not finding much I like right now.. I'm not really feeling the photomanipulation vibe right now. I'd like to collab with a friend again but everyone seems so busy anymore and so am I, so I guess that's how things are. I never want to give up my art though.

I'm not sure how to end this journal. I am just kinda thinking deeply about stuff. I appriciate my fans so much, I appriciate their comments and favs and I appriciate when they use my brushes and resources. If I could I would e-mail everyone a little e-mail greeting card or send them an artwork but I can't. I'm kinda sad because I can't show my fans, supporters and friends how much they mean to me. I can just create my art for them and hope they will like what I create. I always try to impress everyone but it's impossible. I do the best I can and that's all I can do. So I want to say to all my fans and friends reading this journal, Thank you so much for reading this and supporting me. Thank you so much for reading all my ramblings, complaining and for putting up with me all this time. It really means a lot. I see and notice my life is not as rough or as bad as some other unfortunate people and for this I am thankful and really grateful to be me and have the things I do. Thanks everyone for all the support and comments and favs and just everything!

I just want to say as a final note if anyone wants to speak to me on msn messanger or e-mail me my addy is srcallow@hotmail.com I also have ICQ somewhere I think and if anyone wanted to play Mechcommander or transformers with me online that would be soooo awesome or even msn checkers is kinda fun too, I'm down with that lol. I'm also interested to work on art collaborations with other photomanipulators and digital artists. Please send me e-mails or notes if you have any questions or suggestions about my art, what you would like me to create or something you'd like to see me try with my art, I need some inspiration so if you have ideas please feel free to suggest me something interested I could try drawing or photomanipulating. I want to try something new and different!

Thanks everyone again so much for reading this and supporting me. It means a lot. feel free to note me and again my xbox live name is CB KingBee, add me as your friend if you have XBOX LIVEE! I won't be online now but soon but hopefully soon again once I visit my friend again within the next couple days or soon.

PS. i have an important question about photoshop... where to find a keycode for a certain version of Photoshop if I have a trail version downloaded? My computer doesn't have a DVD drive so I can't install certain disks.. I think most program disks are DVD-R now.

-Scotty :blackrose:
Merry Christmas and happy new year, best of wishes and luck in 2012! :tighthug: :kiss: hehehe

I just updated my internet explorer browser for devArt. I was getting some error at the top of my menu saying to update to browse dA... hopefully less buggy and irratating problems.. seems my foggy bottom of my journal is gone now and thing seem a little better but who knows. dA admins keep updating all the time and the more they update the more problems i have here! so whooo knows! dA has changed so much since I've started, I liked it a lot better before all these updated versions but I can't do nothing about it. I'm here simply to create and enjoy art, not so much for deviantArt's excessive updates and crap x.x Ok IM DONE COMPLAINING! lol sorry for my absesnce... i have really crappy dial up internet and my computer is getting kinda old and slower too so I am doing the best I can. sorry very much that I've not really been around. I know I am a little more absent these days but I don't want to stop creating my art. Even if I didn't have deviantArt, I would still want to keep creating art because it is something I truely love. It is my hobby, it relaxes me, it keeps me busy and it helps keeps my mind away from stress and daily drama and just bad things. I love art for what it is. It's very soothing to sit and create something new each time. I know some new works don't get so much faves or comments, each work is different and I can't always be perfect but I love and appriciate each and every fave and comment I get and to see that people still visit my page and adore my art a little. :heart:

So good news. I bought a car, it should be all fixed and ready to drive within a few days or so now! I'm really excited!! Once I have a little more money I think I'm going to buy a computer I spotted.. only $400, 1 tera byte hard drive, windows 7.. thin flat screen monitor.. seems pretty good and the price is right. I need something a little better to create my art with. lots of programs come on DVD rom, this computer doesn't have one so that is definately something I will find useful. Also it will be great for newer, high graphic video games since I am stuck playing games from like 1990 to like 2004 or so.. lol Mech Commander Gold and Yuri's revenge hehe, they will always be my all time favs. Soon if I were to get a new computer and updated photoshop would definately help too! :aww:

I love and miss everyone! I hope everyone had a safe and happy holiday! PS. seems like no more problems with my journal. I'm pretty happy =D

:tux:
Scotty
Hey everyone! :aww:

I don't think I can post the thumbnails anymore since i am not subscribed but I will link them here for you to check out. I did 2 new artworks last night! They actually didn't take very long. Both are dedicated to a very special friend that I've known since the beginning of highschool, he's also on devArt Matt Piskun piskunony The first artwork is called surrender. This artwork is dedicated to him for the passing of his sister Liz who has died of cancer. :blackrose: I promised I would make him an artwork and the second artwork, bye bye beautiful is for his birthday which just passed Oct29th, sorry I'm a bit late with it. However I got some inspiration back and I was really happy how these both turned out :aww:

Thank you all for your kind support! :tighthug: Also my old e-mail is active again. A cousin of mine helped me sort the problem out and I am able to read e-mails and use msn with it. It's srcallow@hotmail.com

surrender -

surrender by WCS-Wildcat
bye bye beautiful - 

bye bye beautiful by WCS-Wildcat


There is a problem with my journal, there is a faded section where it says the mood and what im listening to.. something is messed up does anyone see this and how do i fix it? 
Something happened with my old e-mail addy and damn hotmail has it blocked for some odd reason. I tried many times to reactivate it but i don't know my old passwords for my older accounts because it's been so long since I used them and I never had any of this info written down. Anyways if you'd like everyone can re-add me to my new existing account at scallow@hotmail.com Thanks! :aww:
  • Mood: Rage
  • Listening to: Pitbull
  • Playing: Transformers: war for cybertron
  • Drinking: Pepsi
its my birthday!!! big PARTYYYYYY TONIGHT!! im wishing everyone could come! im 25 today, a whole quarter century old lol
  • Mood: Nervous
  • Listening to: Fefe
  • Playing: Mech Commander Gold
  • Drinking: Pepsi
Hey everyone! :wave:

I'm back to work again, I am going to be doing the long hours like I was before, that means, not much time to play games or work on art again uff. Well I am happy to say I created a new work tonight after several months of being absent from creating. I do have some traditional works but I am not sure if I will submit them here. I bought some new clothes this summer and I also bought designer shades hehe. They are Prada and they cost me $325. lol! :lmao: They are really cool and I love wearing them, I wear them driving when I'm not supposed to. lol, I'm supposed to wear my corrective lenses. I wore my sunglasses swimming, I threw them to the bottom of the pool and let my nephews swim down and get them hehe, I've dropped them accidentally a couple times but they are still in good condition. There is a couple little marks in the centre part but they look like sparkles in the light so I'm not really bothered by it. hehe, that's kinda like Edward Cullen. :aww: i would take pictures but I seemingly lost my camera case, the charger and the USB cord for it. :(

I was would like to try and keep active with my art. I know it's kinda hard to do being so busy and being a crazy Mech gamer but I am going to try to create another piece again very soon. I have been browsing through the stocks more frequently as of lately. I would like to be subscribed again if anyone would be willing to donate. If not that's ok for me, however, I was wondering if anyone would be willing to help me with my dA page? I need help to clean notes, people are using my stocks, I could use someone's help to help fav and maybe leave a lil comment here and there. I would need someone who is honest, and someone who would be willing to say the work is great or needs improvement. I need someone to help me clean my deviation box as it is getting overflowed with everyone's beautiful works and unfortunately, this internet connection is slow and horrible and I am so busy to keep up anymore, I would really really like and need someone's help. I also want to make newsletters again and be updating my journal more and doing art like it should be you know? hehe.. :) If anyone is interested, please e-mail me: srcallow@hotmail.com or maybe just leave a note.

I met a girl I liked and things really weren't working out, I had her phone number but I also recently lost my cell phone too so I decided to just move on. I was supposed to meet someone else from online but she decided to back out last minute and then disapear so scratch that idea! This other friend of mine just recently found a boyfriend so now I guess I am going SOLO to my brother's wedding. I don't have anyone. To be all completely honest, women have given me nothing but problems! I am seriously and completely DONE looking for a girlfriend. lol Maybe one day my princess will come but not today. :giggle: Oh well. I think I can survive.
  • Mood: Nervous
  • Listening to: Fefe
  • Playing: Mech Commander Gold
  • Drinking: Pepsi
I, Scott Russell Callow would love to direct the next TRANSFORMERS movie where the transformers face the humans in a duel between TRANSFORMERS and MECCAS... like mech warriors, human operated robots vs transformer robots which are based on artificial intelligence. ( AI ) and at the end of the movie I would shoot Megatron, the evil robot in the head with an ER PPC ( Extended Range, Particle Projectile Cannon ) kinda like a lightning bolt and short circut him! it would be epic as hell I think.. If anyone saw the new Transformer movie, and you can remember the part where BumbleBee grabs Sam in mid-air and transforms him directly into the car (automobile - man operated machine) The BumbleBee is the idea to my next movie.

I have created a new gaming clan, not just for the MechWarrior series but for anyone who wants to use this tag for xbox or whatever they play online. CLAN BUMBLEBEE SPIRT, [CBS] a spin off of an old clan I operated known as Clan Blood Spirit... CBS also stands for Canadian Broadcast System. lolol

Well it's an Idea anyways. I'm in Gamespy right now for whoever wants to join my clan and play side by side with me is welcome. I can make copies of mechcommander and give them out in the mail for free! I am also willing to give out free art with the cd package in the mail, signed and everything, free of charge, anyone interested? NOTE ME or E-MAIL ME. srcallow@hotmail.com

SCOTT RUSSELL CALLOW
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Evanescence
  • Reading: car magazines
  • Watching: TRANSFORMERS
  • Playing: Mech Commander
  • Drinking: Schweppes ginger ale
I'm at home. everything is doing fine.. I am playing my old games, mech commander and yuri's revenge! lots of fun.. but speaking of robots and the whole mind controlling thing.. you all gotta see the new Transformers movie in 3D... sick as hell! hahaha it was great! thanks everyone for the support I'm doing great just keep writting me... find me on facebook and i'll add everyone or set up a fan page.. thanks!! :blackrose:

:hexentanz:
Scott Russell Callow
AKA: Uber OompaLoompa Menschmaschine! or just Froto lol
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Bruno Mars - Gernade
  • Reading: car magazines
  • Watching: TRANSFORMERS
  • Playing: Yuri's Revenge
  • Eating: Fajitasss
  • Drinking: Water sugar and purple LOL
Thanks to everyone and their support that I've done well in the hospital and today I am being discharged and I am finally free! However I will still be taking medication to help with my thoughts, depression and anxiety. I am doing pretty good and I hope to be getting back into my artworks. I still have to take a look at my computer to see what is causing the slowness and freezing.. if anyone could offer some good advice for my computer troubles it would be greatly appriciated! I may just save up some money to buy something new and something I can call my own, also I would use it to play video games and newer, advanced programs for my art and printing. :aww: :heart:

Thanks again for all the support and everyone leaving comments, I am reading and I am very glad that the few of you haven't forgotten me just yet. I hope to return very soon with some new art, infact I have many traditional artworks I created in the hospital if anyone is interested to see them? :)
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Bruno Mars - Gernade
  • Drinking: Sprite
Hi everyone.

On the weekend i was partying and I guess I got too messed up on smoking too much and getting all high on energy drinks. When I came home I guess my parents said i was acting strange so I suggested maybe that I go to the hospital and they took me. The doctors drugged me and put me in and ambulance and I woke up in a pshyc ward in Sarnia... ufff :( So far things have gone well and I'm out for the weekend but I must return Monday.

I tried to reformat the computer and that was also unsuccessful. I have no windows XP home edition disk. However, I downloaded a software program to clean and fix up and few things but it still seems slow. I'm not sure how my Photoshop program is working because I have had no time to try things out... plus I will have to get back to work too so I am busy and things are not going well as of lately so please pray for me and wish me luck, thank you! :aww:

Scott Callow
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Nightwish
  • Drinking: Sprite
It's been probably been a couple months since I updated last. Some of you probably lost track of me or forgotten me, some eagerly waiting for more art!

I had been called back to work in January. I am working a crazy, busy schedual, 6:00am - 17:00pm / 5pm. Our company is small but recently increased with the amount of orders comming in. More people have been hired, I got a small raise and I am kinda on my own and incharge of a small assembly area where I put plastic and rubber lining inside the metal products to protect the grain and protect it from rusting from the inside out.
I've been lately going out quite a bit on weekends since I have money to spend and since I live outside of the cities I like to visit different towns and visit shops and pubs and different little things. I've also lost quite a bit of weight and I'm starting to look better and feel better about myself too. :aww:

I finally decided to get off my lazy rear end and fix this mess of a computer I have. I have all my art files saved and backed up and tonight I am going to try to repair it, hopefully whipe the entire hard drive clean and reinstall my programs, all my art files are saved so I don't have any anxiety about it now. :boogie:

With that said, I will be trying to get a newer version of photoshop and also high speed internet so I can download my resources faster, I can afford to save and buy some of this I think, I am hoping soon to eventually buy my own computer too! For now though I have to work with what I have and hopefully try to get better internet and sorted out properly so I can continue to create art! :heart:

I really and honestly do miss creating my art. I haven't been able to express my feelings and let out my frustrations in my art like before when I was more active. I am hoping things go well when I reformat my HD, maybe some of you will be able to stay in touch through notes or msn and even Facebook to help me with some advice. Please wish me luck and I hope to be back again very soon! :tighthug: :blackrose:

-Scott Callow
  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: Lacuna Coil
  • Drinking: Pepsi!

computer is shit, taking a lil break x.x

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 7, 2011, 4:02 PM



I was trying sooooo damn hard to come back on dA and keep creating and be active but my computer is having a lot of problems. Its tooo slow.. I can't do much anymore. everything takes forever to open or close, or freezes or gives me a stupid error. Ugh, its so frustrating! how can I create art when i have so many stupid lil problems with my computer. I can't even note people now cos im getting stupid errors. My internet is a slow piece of shit to! I'm so mad!!

I'm busy with work.. im too tired to fix this stupid computer cos i dont know what exactally im doing and im afraid to lose my art. I think i kinda know what to do but its a bit time consuming. I'm on a busy schedual with work and real life issues. work, eat, sleep and repeat.. can my life be anymore boring and shit? i dont think so! uffiii x.x :cries:

I got a raise at work, I'm making a bit more money now. things are busier than ever right now. I dont have time to do anythinggg.. im trying to save to buy my own car and hopefully moveee out. It's a bit hard saving at the moment. I'm sorry to say but i have to leave dA for a while because i can't create art right now. My computer is not good.. it needs to be repaired. I am busy with work too and unable to create. I'll be around to check notes and messages and whatever I can til i fix this. Please be patient and I will try to return as soon as I can. I love ya all! :tighthug: :heart:

Scott

  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: Lacuna Coil
  • Drinking: Pepsi!

computer problems / suggestions?

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 17, 2011, 3:37 PM



hey everyone. :aww:

My computer is extremely slow now, not just my internet but everything. I know I could probabaly run some virus scans and defrag and whatever but I think it would be better and faster just to clean everything and start over. I got a lot of programs and hidden stuff that I've gotten to the point i dont even know what it is and most of the stuff on this computer I don't even use. I'm going to start backing up files and clean everything off. I am a bit worried to lose my Photoshop CS2, however I need a newer program now I think. Also If things don't go so well and I can't get my art programs running again.. well it's unfortunate to say but I am hardly creating anyways. :( Photoshop is constantly running so slow and freezing and crashing and doing all kinds of strange things that I don't even bother opening it anymore. The overall slowness has dragged me down so much and I'm fed up... I can't create art with shit hardware Ok? lol Eventually I think I'm going to buy my own computer but that won't be for a while yet. I'm still stuck with this one, running dial up and windows XP. Well I don't know, Maybe some of you have some better suggestions?

Work is really busy. I come home and all I want to do is eat and sleep. I wake up and repeat the cycle. Weekends I like to go out and do things. Go to eat, go shopping, visit friends, drink, party go to casinos all that fun stuff.. lol.. I'm still young. I want to have fun while I am young. However I need to set time to create art more. My art is suffering now I think. I seriously want to come back and be active like I was but I am having slow computer problems and also as always, slow internet problems. Once I get it reformated and clean I think things would speed up quite drastically. I am willing to pay for some rural highspeed internet. weither it is some wireless, internet stick or satilight... I'm not sure.. I just don't want to spend too much. I also need a DVD drive to help burn cd's and play certain games and stuff. :)

Well I am really tired now. I am home from work.. feels like I have no life... work- sleep - work - sleep - work sleep... weekends, i party, drink a little maybe... go home tired and work and sleep for another week.. fun fun. lol It was nice when I had time off. I wish I had created more art when I wasn't busy. I can't promise anything but I am really trying hard to come back to dA. I seriously thank those who are close supporters to me and always helping me and giving me advice. My fans are the ones that keep me active, motived and inspired to be here on dA and keep creating. Thank you all so very much. On a final note I would appricate anyone's advice to my computer problem. hehe :heart:

Ok.. did I write enough? lol (ramble ramble ramble..:giggle:)

Scotty
AKA: Oompa Loompa - my nickname at work lol :lmao:

  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: Lacuna Coil
  • Drinking: Pepsi!

stiches + fractured finger

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 31, 2011, 3:46 PM



Hey everyone. :(

I am just letting everyone know that I am still here. I have some bad news though. At work I suffered through an injury to my left index finger. I was working on a bending machine and i was lining up the part to be bent and I used the button for the press to lower and bend the steel part and I thought my hand was in a safe position but the press lowered onto my finger and pinched it hard. However, if my finger was a bit further into the base of where the part is pressed and bent, my finger could have been crushed off completely! :faint: Lucky it was a close call! It only clipped the corner of where my finger was resting in the machine. The cut was deep enough that I had to get 3 stiches and X-rays show the tip of the finger's bone is a bit cracked. This happened Thursday. The doctor did not give me any ease to the situation and said I was ok to work the very next day. ugh.. but since the weekend has passed, my poor little finger is feeling much better now! I am very happy that I still have my finger and I have definately learned my lesson on working with those types of machines. Safety is never on vacation, I must always be careful. Now I am able to do some more harder jobs at work without feeling too much pain from my finger. It does still hurt but it's much better now. :)

I've been away from dA for a long time it seems. I think mostly everyone forgot about me. I create my art and I don't get nearly close to the amount of comments and favs and stuff as I was. I write journals but I think most people don't care to read these so much anymore. I am not meaning to complain, I just think I will need to work a little harder on my art and things to get noticed again, It's just hard, being so busy with work and other things. Sometimes I think I am not meant to be an artist. Many times I think my works really suck and I seem to never improve. It can be a little depressing when I am stuck and can't create anything due to my lack of inspiration, motivation and negative thinking I get. I am hoping to change that this year though or at least try. :heart:

Good news though, I have been more active speaking with some of my favorite artists on deviantArt. Some of you may know about my past with Liliana Sanches, Princess-of-Shadows and I am happy to say that there is finally peace between us and a friendship again! I was discussing with her somethings about art. Like what keeps her motivated and how she finds her inspiration and she told me some very good ideas and things that have helped inspire me a little bit. Just recently I found she added me to Facebook and it was a shock to me because I didn't even know she had Facebook, so we are chatting there sometimes, it's very nice. Also the same for Ana Fagarazzi, AF-studios we were discussing somethings about tutorials and hair painting techniques. I am just browsing the tutorials today to see what I find interesting. Unfortunately for Ana, her computer crashed and she lost all her art and resources she had save on her hard drive and did not have any of the files backed up! I feel very bad for her. Thankfully for me I have most of my stuff saved on an external harddrive! :aww:

Anyways I needed to write a long journal this time and just let everything out. For those who care and read my journals, I wish to give you a super super big hug! Thank you so much. :tighthug: but now I am very busy and working full time at work. 6am to 5pm everyday. x.x

Scott :blackrose:

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Nightwish - Last of the Wilds
  • Drinking: Stolichnaya + orange juice

back to work

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 23, 2011, 6:45 PM



I'm very glad to have my job back! I was just called back on monday, it was a long week. I work 6am to 5pm everyday and I worked saturday 6am to 12 noon. I was collecting unemployment insurance money until I was called back recently. I was really nice to have that time off to relax, however when I was working on monday, my feet weren't used to working and standing all day long. My ankles were hurting a lot too but by the end of the week I am starting to get used to my boots again. I do need new ones though, these still hurt my feet a little. I think I will get new ones on my next pay.

Unfortunately this job is taking away from a lot of my personal free time. I come home, shower, eat and I get to use the computer for a couple hours and then I'm tired and want to sleep. I don't have much time for art again. I am working on something new but I can't promise exactally when it will be finished. Also all collabs and projects are on hold because I am too busy! A least I will be making some money! I want to save to travel again but first I am planning to buy a car of my own and start my life.

I am still interested in going to that college in Niagara for graphic design but I can't tell what will happen. 2010 was a hard year for me. I am hoping 2011 will be much better. I hope everyone will wish me good luck! I will try to finish my new artwork very soon. :heart:


Scott :blackrose:

  • Mood: Astonished
  • Listening to: Rammstein
  • Watching: SAW 7
  • Drinking: Pepsi!

new journal + featuresss!

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 10, 2011, 1:43 PM



Hey everyone! :wave:

I have now a new journal skin updated! It's a lot different from what I am used to it, however its somewhat similar to the design I used a long time ago, although this layout is a quite a bit different hehe. It may take a little time to get used to :giggle:

Special thanks to Alice, MrsCullen to help me again with my deviantArt and journal stuff. After a year or so we have made peace and are now friends again, which is very nice. Also to those who miss our artworks, we may be working on a collaboration artwork soon in the next few days! :aww:

Now that I am a little more active I will be updating a bit more and open to collabs as well! I will be also working with AndyGarcia666 again. She will also be helping me update things with my gallery too!

I wanted to update with some features of some of my gallery and also some of my favourite artworks over the past few weeks or so.

my favs

Farah by yumedustMiss Lullaby  Remake by maril1
:thumb158457844:Absinthe kiss, a sweet venom by LuneBleu
r e m i n i s c e n c e by EmberRoseArtLugar Secreto by AndyGarcia666
:thumb157528251:You Don't Wear My Chains by x0celestial
Sugizo II by zemotionVelvet Touch by LadyAmdis

some of my best

last of the wilds by WCS-Wildcatwinter's cry by WCS-Wildcat
bad romance by WCS-Wildcatforget all that I am by WCS-Wildcat
live aus berlin by WCS-Wildcatmadcat by WCS-Wildcat

I hope you all enjoyed my selection of favourites and also a few of my art. It is a new year, 2011! I wan't to become better and better and I am hoping this will be a very active year for me, doing updates, features, journals and most importantly, my art! Thank you all for kind suppoert! :heart:

-Scott Callow

  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Within Temptation - Forgiven